lately I've been feeling overwhelmed. You see, we are called to bear one another burdens and the people I loved have so many. I find myself going in circles not getting as much accomplished as I'd like and being easily distracted and well, annoyed but not at anyone, just annoyed. Does that make sense? Strange I know, but that is the best way I can describe it right now.
My mind goes to My Aunt who just lost her mother (my mee-maw) and I wonder how she spends her day since she doesn't have grandma to care for, does she know how much we love and appreciate her? My heart breaks for my best friend who just lost her daddy, because just a few short years ago I lost mine & I know how debilitating this time is for her, I seem to be reliving a bit myself this time of year as the anniversary of Daddy's home-going approaches; I want to reassure her that it gets better, but I don't know that it does ya know? I think you accept it eventually and learn to move forward bit by bit but really it's still not "better" for me even 4 years out. Another of my Aunts have received bad news from test results and it scares me to think about the possibilities of what is to come.All that and that is just the tip of the iceberg,
However...
in my quiet time this morning I found myself in Psalm 143 labeled in my bible as An Earnest Appeal for Guidance and Deliverance, seemed fitting I would say right? lol
well, I will not write the whole Psalm but oh how my soul resonates with this scripture today! vs.4 Therefor my spirit is overwhelmed within me, my heart within me distressed. vs.6 I spread my hands out to you; my soul longs for you like a thirsty land.
I love how my Abba Father gives me the freedom to cry in His lap for a while, then offers a big hug of comfort through His Word. Now, don't get me wrong I'm still thinking and praying for all of my loved ones but I heard loud and clear "I got this Baby Girl" from my Lord... yes we talk to each other like that ;)
I'm choosing to count my blessings today! I'm thankful I have family that loves and looks after one another, I'm blessed to have a friendship in which I can be totally transparent and accepted and have that same gift to offer her. I'm so appreciative that I've been blessed with a husband to allow me to raise my children from home, which in turn offers me the freedom to help others and be available for (insert here). I'm choosing today, instead of being overwhelmed by the things of the world, to be overwhelmed by the love of God and the wonderful works that he is doing in my life! ~ Blessed By the Best ~
